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I message you

But how can I get this across?
Hey I think there might be
A reason for you to bite me
To claw and scratch
And fight me
But there is no way to tell you
When you are not alone
Consider gigantic loss
If you were to know
You could actually fight back
When at your heart’s desire
Is peace, love and harmony
I wish you were not far from me
When at my heart’s desire true
Is the love for a fight
But just with you
It seems alright

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