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Pandora's Box

Any new occurrence in my environment I immediately understand as an obstacle right now.
Granted that an unsual amount of things cluster up sometimes, as life is, I need to be able to ignore things that are hypothetical for now and improve my ability to not see anything that could be a possible opportunity as outright negative.
That applies to a friendly get-together with friends for Christmas also. Poor communication habits meets carelessness and thirty minutes into a group chat I can already picture disaster.

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